I woke up this morning to a barrage of Facebook statuses and Tweets about some Tornado Warning here in my town in the middle of the night last night. I read about how people were in their safe places and up all hours of the night waiting for the danger to pass. Before I went to bed, I had prepared for this storm…unplugged all my favorite electronics, made sure my phone battery was 100% and turned my sound on so I could hear the weather radio warnings, should they come, and I fell asleep.
Years ago I would have stayed up, or tried to sleep with the TV blasted so I could hear exactly when to run for cover. Something has changed. Maybe its just that I “know the drill” or I have a better understanding that tornados are random. They can take one house and leave the one next to it untouched and there is little anyone can do to prevent that. Maybe my subconscious understands that God is in control, that my stuff is just stuff and if its time for it to be destroyed then so be it.
It got me thinking about the time Jesus and His disciples were in a boat during a big storm and at first the disciples were cool and relaxed, then they got freaked out by the big waves crashing into the boat and didn’t understand how Jesus could sleep through the seeming chaos. After Jesus calms the waves down, he speaks these words that I’m sure hit them square in the eyes. Mark 4:41- “Why were you afraid? Don’t you have any faith?”
Then I realized as calm as I can be now about physical storms, the emotional storms or situational storms in my life I totally still freak out about.
I’m like the disciples asking God all the time, “Do you not care that I’m going to drown? Don’t you see this storm or that storm raging all around me? Don’t you see the wind and waves crashing in my life?”
This morning I realized that I need to trust God for all the “inside” storms of my life and not just the outside ones. I need to trust Him with my heart and soul like I do with my physical body….
I’m pretty sure He cares more about my heart anyway.